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2009-12-01T16:00:00.002+08:00

599th

Goodbye Blogger.
I'm leaving for good.
If you know, you know.
Dont know, it's meant to be.

2009-11-27T01:23:00.003+08:00

Checkpoint!

1. Spiritual Life - Gooood
2. Social Life - Awesomeeeeee
3. Studies - Fineeee
4. Health - Crap!!!!
5. Fitness - Fine
6. Netball - Still on hold
7. Heart - Perfecto

I'm happy like that!! :D

2009-11-19T01:32:00.002+08:00

The same thing goes again

2009-11-02T00:44:00.002+08:00

This is hilarious.
My desktop always have this gadget that generates supposedly motivational quote. Yea, thought it might motivate me to study and stop using the com. But today, the quote generated was totally irrelevant. Then again, I think I found some revelations out of it.

The quote goes ''Love is just a system for getting someone to call you darling after sex''

Ultimate. I think it's just implying for us students to study hard for now. Forget about love. It's just sex. HAHAHAHAHAHA.

2009-10-25T22:00:00.002+08:00

At least it's better now, I think.

And I just reaped this off faith's blog. Humourous yet brilliant!
"Finding love, is like... forming a covalent bond.

While a covalent bond is the electrostatic forces of attraction for some other atom's electrons, which results in sharing of electrons to form a stable octet (usually), finding love is roughly equivalent to finding something you like in somebody else, in the hope of attaining some form of elusive happiness.

If the two atoms are too far away, the attraction of the nuclei for the electrons is too weak and no bond is formed. But if the distance between the two atoms is too small, internucleic and interelectronic repulsion overrules the nucleic attraction and they get repelled away, so no bond is formed either. It is a delicate balance between the attraction between the nuclei and the electrons and the repulsion that results in the formation of a covalent bond, and really, it does sound awfully familiar to me.

Some bonds are strong and some less strong, some shorter and some longer, but really, all it takes is the right bond energy and strain to break your covalent bonds. So whether you're H-Cl or H-I are a polyatomic MgCO3 (I don't know how that would come about actually), there's always a specific temperature that will result in decomposition, although that would vary significantly between molecules. (Highly charged --> more easily decomposed)

So......... good luck finding your optimal inter-nucleic distance and I hope you're a stable diatomic molecule! (: "

2009-10-22T00:56:00.002+08:00

A drop in the ocean, a change in the weather.
Continue, will you?

I'm super sleepy.
19 more days my dear friends.
The nearer we are to A's, the nearer we are to LIBERATION.
Awesomeeeee.

2009-10-17T17:26:00.003+08:00

I want to touch the clouds.
And what do you read from here?

2009-10-11T22:29:00.003+08:00

What a pity.

A pity that our friendship couldnt withstand this/that storm. Everything just fell apart.
I miss you very much.
Still, I thank God for you.

Awesome weekend.
Wooohoooo. :D

2009-10-02T21:36:00.002+08:00

Where are we now?

Many months back, I thought maybe WW3 will break out when the superpowers' status start to get threatened.
Afew days back, BP just enlightened me that WW3 will probably break out when countries start to compete for the depleting resources.
Yesterday, I'm convinced that WW3 will not happen.
We WILL be wiped out by mother nature eventually.
Oh well. What a way to end things.

39 more days.

2009-09-14T22:56:00.002+08:00

因为這一切的一切
仿佛使我對周围的人都視而不見
确实是内心的遗憾

2009-09-13T02:37:00.001+08:00

HAHAHA. THIS IS THE ULTIMATUM OF THE NIGHT.

♥MrEdwin. You'll get guilty when you did something wrong. says:
hahas,studying ah?
iuhney (: says:
no la
iuhney (: says:
so tired alr how to study
iuhney (: says:
you?
iuhney (: says:
your n's over alr not?
♥MrEdwin. You'll get guilty when you did something wrong. says:
all my fren @ my house,very xin ku
♥MrEdwin. You'll get guilty when you did something wrong. says:
not yet lah,monday gt Nlevel
iuhney (: says:
wait
iuhney (: says:
you mean your friends are here now?
♥MrEdwin. You'll get guilty when you did something wrong. says:
yup
iuhney (: says:
OMG
iuhney (: says:
HOW CAN I NOT KNOW!

For your info, that was my brother who lives 3metres away from me! Woah huh.
Goodnight.

2009-09-12T01:20:00.002+08:00

when thoughts and actions are slowly fading away
and how fast day passes by without you realising
it is just nothing but a blessing in disguise
all is well

2009-09-04T00:34:00.002+08:00

Coping fine, coping well. Without you.
To the point, I like.

2009-09-01T21:29:00.001+08:00

For you.

Last night was awesome to the max.

But I'm suffering from the aftermath now because, MY LIMBS ARE BREAKING.

2009-08-30T01:21:00.002+08:00

Thank you for being there.
Thanks Jarrod, really.

2009-08-29T00:53:00.003+08:00

You know what, it sucks big time when people out there are just merely testing out how much you are willing to go all out for them. Yes, I totally hate that feeling. I hate it to the maximum.

2009-08-23T16:23:00.002+08:00

I'm very tired.

Really very tired.

Do you not understand?

2009-08-16T21:06:00.002+08:00

Finally, some doors are opened and I'm pretty optimistic about it. At least when all else fails, I have something else to look forward to.

Very goooood. :D

2009-08-11T00:53:00.002+08:00

The good old days, the honest man
The restless heart, the Promised Land
A subtle kiss that no one sees
A broken wrist and a picture piece

Things are fine.
Press on, 21 days to make it a habit. A habit to rid you off my mind.

2009-08-09T08:31:00.002+08:00

You better run for the hills before they burn
Listen to the sound of the world
And watch it turn
I just want to show you what I know
And catch you when the current lets you go
Or should I just get along with myself

I never did get along with everybody else
I've been trying hard to do what's right
But you know I could stay here all night
And watch the clouds fall from the sky

This river is wild
This river is wild

2009-08-06T01:31:00.003+08:00

Origins

We are weighed down by the expectations set by others. The standards that all of us are struggling to meet. The endless guilt trips, the endless self reproach. Probably because we have forgotten that we are human before anything else.

We are just mere ordinary people who are in need of an extraordinary God.

2009-08-02T19:27:00.003+08:00

credits to debsim's blog

2009-07-26T19:01:00.002+08:00

It's definitely not at all pleasant to experience sadness, anger and stress at the same time. That's the time when your emotions take full control of your rationality. You lose your authority, you lose your hold. It becomes matter over mind instead of the other way round. Perhaps that's when you feel so vulnerable. You just needed some words of reaffirmation that all things will be fine, a reaffirmation that someone cares.

So today, I lost that.
Thank you, my friend.

2009-07-25T00:44:00.004+08:00

Hang in there!!
Dec 03 spells liberation.

Still hanging onto something I'm not supposed to.
That should be a bad thing I guess.

2009-07-19T18:32:00.004+08:00

Tonight.

You draw me closer than the air

You wipe away all my despair tonight

You pull me out to where You are

Until I'm drowning in Your love tonight

I'm only drowning in Your love

Cause You give when You should take away

and You take away what should have been my pain

and You offer good when I've none in me

You're the only love that makes me complete

Make me complete

I will learn to face the hurdles and stumbling rocks because I am made complete in Him.

Fret the A's no more, fret the future no more. The Lord will never leave nor forsake you.

For we are people made to be more than a conqueror in Christ the Lord.

Yes, very comforting indeed. (:

2009-07-18T21:50:00.003+08:00

Needs VS Wants

1) Need to buy time.
2) Need to study.
3) Need to sleep less.
4) Need to work out.
5) Need to prioritise.
6) Need to hide my laptop.
7) Need to sort out my feelings.

1) Want to stop studying.
2) Want to burn my notes.
3) Want to escape from school.
4) Want to eat swedish meatball from ikea.
5) Want to have bucks.
6) Want to leave Singapore.
7) Want to sleep.

Goodnight. (:

2009-07-12T22:47:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling very heavy laden now and I'm not exactly happy about it. :(

It took me 20 minutes just to write those words down.
Anyway, thanks reg and daph for coming down.
You guys made my afternoon a whole load better unknowingly. (:

2009-07-10T00:38:00.003+08:00

When randomness kicks in.

They said that when you're sad,
it's possible to sleep your sadness away.
However for now, I'm not sad.
I'm just feeling uber hungry.
I think I can swallow a cow now.
So do you think if it's possible to sleep away my hunger too?
Uhh, it's possible. Trust me! :D
But i just burped, what does this mean?
Human body is just so interesting.
Hahahaha, goodnight.

2009-07-05T23:39:00.002+08:00

Dream.

Last night's dream was nice, it was real. Yet, it was too good to be true and that bring about disappointment. It's like waking up to find yourself back to who you are. And it's worse when you thought that the dream was real. As though it has somewhat become an experience that we have gone through. But nah, a dream is still, afterall, a dream.

That's why I never like dreaming.
You either wake up feeling disappointed that hey, I am who I am.
Or you wake up freaking out by the fact that you actually had a nightmare.
It sucks isnt it.

2009-07-04T20:57:00.002+08:00

What I really need now is MY BED!!
Pardon me if this post doesnt sound coherent but then again, since when was it even coherent in the first place. I cant believe the school freaking took my saturday away just like this. Spending nearly 4 hours in the hall listening to things that have been repeated like umpteen times is no easy feat. I swear I'm really tired now. Maybe it's the flu, or even swine! Ha! Kidddddding.
Yet even during the tired times, me as the typical A level student tried squeezing abit of knowledge into my already filled pea size brain. Yadah yadah, it dint work out. And I thought mabe by resting my head on my worksheet might work cause active transport of knowledge may occur. At least I choose to believe it's active transport and not diffusion. Not that dense afterall.

Okay, seems like all facilitated diffusion, simple diffusion or even active transport wont work for the moment. I need to sleep. Bye.
Wait, monday is youth day and I'm very happy. It compensated my lost saturday. Wooohoooo. Time to head the bed. :D

2009-06-28T20:23:00.003+08:00

Somewhere in the sea of words and drafts, I once mentioned that the emulsion of an opposite emotion has proved to be way stronger and mightier. That's why I'm saved from satan's wrath of arousing hatred. This very much explains why I'm still motionless since then.

Comprehended?
Neither can I. It has proved to be too complex.

2009-06-25T00:19:00.002+08:00

Half truth.

Sometimes, you just wonder how on earth can you be so honest and truthful towards someone and yet so reluctant to another. You may say it's an issue of trust but I can tell you, it's not! For my case at least. I dont know what's stopping me for being that truthful, or rather, to speak my mind. Is it that hard? If it's that hard, then why am I able to do so to some people?

It's really funny how the human minds work. If only I know what's wrong with me. Maybe then, I will not live life in regrets because there are just things that I wished to say, but I cant. Then again, if only...

And since when does if only occurs, it's the past isnt it? Owells.
Guess we just got to learn things the hard way.

2009-06-21T22:10:00.002+08:00

Self-contented

Today feels different. Maybe is the song that has been playing since 6pm till now. The wonder of songs and how it manages to lift up my spirits. I choose to believe it is God's work at hand. It has definitely been quite some time since I felt so free, as though I had just experienced liberation from sadness, depression and heartbreaks. This is the time, the time to move on and let you go. I will be contented with life. (:

Glory in the Highest!!!

2009-06-21T02:16:00.002+08:00

I typed quite a chunk before this but I guessed this line alone would suffice for what I need to know and what you need to find out.

''... because I'm none other than an escapist. ''

2009-06-18T16:58:00.004+08:00

Spectrum

As lovely as the spectrum of colours on the rainbow may be, I will do fine without it.
Because, I said I will be strong. I will find my way through the heavy downpour and smile when I reached my destination.

Finally a post after what seems like hours.
Well done Yenhui. (:

2009-06-14T00:56:00.002+08:00

The spirit is willing,

I dont exactly know how to put into words about what went through my mind during alter call. Too many flashes and recounts that I can hardly string into words. Yet, as much as I'm determined, I doubt I actually have the heart to let go. To let go of something that's been etched in my heart for more than a year. I dont know how this is going to turn out but for what I know, I really cant bear to. To make things worse, this issue has been taking a toll on me recently. So much that I thought it could compensate what I have lost in my spiritual life. How naive.

Give me time, I need to sieve through the unnecessaries in my life.
And this time round, I will learn to let go.
Even if it means you.

But the flesh is weak.

2009-06-07T19:27:00.002+08:00

Shed.

The night became so vulnerable that something overtook rationality. Maybe it's the health maybe it's the heart. All because besides having a terrible throat last night, somewhere in the body the ventricles and atriums screamed 'pained'. So pain that tears came streaming down. But like what I said, it may always be due to the health.

So goodnight.
Yenhui WILL conquer this phase.

2009-06-04T19:01:00.006+08:00

Indifference.

I'm happy with where I am now.
I'm happy with life now.
I'm happy with how much things have changed.
All these have resulted from the indifferences of negativity and downfall.
I'm glad I held on, so tightly.
"The heart has its reasons which reason knows not of." -Blaise Pascal

If there's sth I need to say very badly, it would be I need to return to God. This child of His has been stranded for way too long. So long that the feeling of despair and lost have found their way into her heart. The heart that has lost its fervour for God. I believe the amount of thanksgiving given to God is uncomparable to me, returning back to Him.

2009-06-01T01:59:00.002+08:00

When intangible words found the tangible heart

First thing first,
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY AMANDA YEEE!!
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY YEOMEIII!!
I have successfully gave this 2 awesome birthday girls their celebration. (:

Secondly, that day I have decided to follow the rest to ubin. The turn out was rather unexpected cause there was supposed to be more but all in all, I had fun still. But I'm sure the mosquitoes have a feast on my legs. It's still itching like idk, crap! Arghhh. :(

There's school tmr or rather, P's rally which I doubt really helps in motivating me. =/ Waste of time. So yeap, goodnight.

2009-05-29T00:08:00.002+08:00

Run, Running, Ran NOT.

I love to run away from reality. I'm still running away from reality. But I did not conquer my second world, cause more often than not, reality yanked me back and slapped me right in the face. Still, I love it this way cause at least I'm real enough. Real enough to know what's self deception.

Unable to understand? It's okay. It wasnt meant to be interpreted, by you at least. HA!
Okay, Goodnight/Goodmorning. (:

Random sidenote: I ran today!! :D:D:D:D

2009-05-25T22:06:00.004+08:00

Love, you know?

In my subconscious state, I start to believe I engaged in more deep thoughts than when I'm supposedly wide awake. As such, I drift to a place so far away till I have come to senses that I possess no love as magnificient as the one above, my Lord my God. That's why to give my all with equal share is near impossible because afterall, I'm still a human. A human with bias opinions, a human with judgemental issues. I dont know how to love sacrificially, I dont know how to love unconditionally and that fully explains why I'm still learning. Learning to love the people around me.

To start with, I should love my family. And yes, I dont want superficial love. I hope this get drilled in my mind. Plus, I dont want to seek love cause I want to learn to love. I guess this is going to be an enjoyable journey. Just a food for thought cause I've been thinking way too much recently. Or rather, I'm more subconscious lately. Rightt....

On a sidenote, I'm really missing this group of people. :(
And I really hope for A's to end soon cause I really cant wait for the life after it!!!! Goshhh.
Blue eyeessss. Haahahahahahaha.

Kaykay, Goodnight. Time to head for some econs cause I have yet to touch it.
Time check: 10.17pm. So late, darn, me is so deaddd.
BYE!

2009-05-23T11:40:00.004+08:00

Mr Brightside

Quote Fit:

"Patience with others is Love, Patience with self is Hope, Patience with God is Faith"

So, cultivate patience. All for a good cause. (:

Anyway, GOOD MORNING EVERYONE!! :D

I hate waking up on a saturday morning and to find out that I have nothing to do. I know studying should be a priority now but... It's okay. I'm screwing it just this last time, last time.

Back to bed. Bye.

Note to self: BE HAPPY!!

2009-05-19T23:01:00.002+08:00

Twelve/Break.

I thought 12 is a rather nice number, especially so when you spell it (there's no teen/tys) and it signifies a break from self-grappling misery since then, at least to me. So I'm in the midst of my mid years and erm, so far so good but tomorrow is going to be a different story. The very least I could do was to bring myself into a good 1 hour of revision so as to not feel that helpless tomorrow. Not asif I still wont but at least I tried. Seee, I tried!!!

There's this blog/livejournal that's rather intriguing (I cant believe I actually search the dictionary for this word, Loser!). Anyway, as I was saying, it somewhat shows how people write notes to themselves or to the world. Not to be mean, but I had a good time laughing over it. Hahahaha. Self entertainment but seriously, just look at how others got themselves tangled in all kinds of shit, even in the slightest things of all is super amusing. Morbid but who cares, the world is kinda morbid anyway. However, if you are searching for something even random, that lj has it all too. LOL!!

Dear World,
I am single. And so so broken.
-MK

Dear Dad,
I'm not fanatical. I'm just bored. I can stop. I know when to stop. I have self-control.
Fanatical already happened, you were just too blind to notice.
Screw you,
-Colleen

Ultimate jokebook.
Now, I wonder if my life is a joke to you?
Hmmmm. Goodnight!

2009-05-17T21:48:00.002+08:00

She's losing it.

Right now, I'm feeling none other but angry/grumpy whatever you call it!!! Apparently my nap didnt work out and this is so infuriating I SWEAR!! And it doesnt help when the lights are on, the tv is on with a bleeding loud volume and omg, smoke! Well done. Might as well live in a cave! Arghhhhh.

So much for trying to read my GP after my nap. All goneeeeeee. Cause the nap dint even succedded. Okay, I'm too angry for words.

Sidenote, Regina is a happy girl today. Happy for her. :D
*Seeing green!! :O

2009-05-16T13:23:00.002+08:00

10 days and no news.

This is what one would do when exam is 2 days away and she feels like doing anything but study. This isnt a good sign, and there's probably no way of me achieving my goals now. So sad but too bad, I guessed this is all I deserved for the amount of hardwork put in.

Pop art is the bomb. Hohoho.
I'm so gonna slp now before making my way to church and watch gifted. Woohoo
Good afternoon. (:

2009-05-14T15:18:00.004+08:00

Take you back.

The reason why I stand

The answer lies in you

You hung to make me strong

Though my praise was few

When I fall and bring your name down

But I have found in you

A heart that pleads forgiveness

Replacing all these thoughts

Of painful memories

But I know

That your response will always be

I'll take you back always

And even when your fight is over now

Even when your fight is over now

I'll take you back always

And even when the pain is coming through

Even when the pain is coming through

I'll take you back

You satisfy this cry

Of what I'm looking for

And I take all I can

And lay it down

Before the throne of endless grace, now

That radiates what's true

I'm in the only place

That erases all these faults

That have overtaken me

But I know

That your response will always be

I can only speak

With a grateful heart

As I'm pierced by this gift Of your love

I will always bring an offering

I can never thank you enough

yes please. :(

2009-05-11T22:24:00.003+08:00

Hehehehe. I had no intention to blog till things are settled down but apparently I cant cause I have got sth to share. No a big deal but I like leaaaa.

[RJCSB] andrew. says:
complex no. also quite waste of time
iuhney (: says:
YES TOTALLY
iuhney (: says:
like we would even use it in future
[RJCSB] andrew. says:
damn retarded... nothing better to calculate, go play with imaginary numbers
iuhney (: says:
YES!!!!!!!

See how even people from the elite school comment on the things we learnt. Useless to the max please. And omg, JEREMY CAMP is damn hot!! Very wrong but erm yea, HOT!
I know this post really isnt sth proper but whatever, told you I dint even had the intention to blog ~~here~~.
Woohoo, study hard people.
Eh Amee, that's another 'J' to collection.

2009-05-09T21:42:00.002+08:00

Go figure, there's an alternative for expression.
Will be back, soon enough.

2009-05-06T22:19:00.002+08:00

So much more.

Crucial match it was, we lost it.
I dint play well. I know I should not dwell on it but, give me time.
I'm sad and am on the verge of tearing.

Yes, you can call me emotional for once.

2009-05-03T23:17:00.002+08:00

A message to you.

You know it's tough hanging on.
You know it's tough suppressing.
You know it's hurting you.
You know it's bringing you unnecessary pain.
You know it's self delusion.
You know, yes you definitely know.
But why arent you doing anything abt it?
Grow up, Let go, Move on.

With love,
Yenhui. I really wish I could.

2009-04-26T21:34:00.002+08:00

Please go.

I'll make this short and straight to the point.

- Super tired physically. Not even 12 hours of sleep is enough I swear.
- Going to flunk my mye at the rate I'm going.
- Twisted my ankle during training and it's nationals period. =/
- A whole load of homework incomplete. Expected man

There's a lot to be said for self delusionment when it comes to matters of the heart.
-- Diane Frolov and Andrew Schneider

Goodnight.

2009-04-21T21:07:00.002+08:00

A tinge of happiness. and heartfelt warmth.

Yay! I'm quite happy today!! Isnt that a good thing. However, maths was an exception cause once again, I screwed up the test. Now, I'm so gonna be a sore in his eyes cause I still insist of not seeking him for consultation. But what to do! I dont have questions to ask him what!!!!!!

Okay, so we are gonna have a match against NJ tomorrow.

GO SR NETBALL! FTW! :D

2009-04-18T20:58:00.001+08:00

But you should know
When it gets too cold
You're not alone
I'll melt the snow

Zzzzz, bad time to catch a cold.
Goodnight.

2009-04-16T19:09:00.002+08:00

Come what may, today I will face with faith.

Yenhui, stand strong.

2009-04-12T16:27:00.003+08:00

All the world's a stage, and all the men and women merely players.

I reviewed my past 1 year as a futile wait.
Will be thankful if it doesnt stretch across 2,
else I'm the biggest loser.

2009-04-09T21:26:00.004+08:00

~~Last words.~~

I just want to say that IM FREAKING SCARED/AFRAID/ANXIOUS/FRIGHTENED for wednesday match. It doesnt matter if I'm benched so long the best players are out there giving their all. I cant swallow the reality that the first match is the most crucial match. I swear the whole team needs a prep talk, a morale booster, I myself definitely.

Goshhh, do you know the main push factor of settling myself to blog is to note down my last words in case I die. But, it's so anti-climax and kinda inappropriate. Shit man. How now brown cow. And I was already bringing myself into those emo/sad mood to give you guys an emotional and impactful post. Hahahahaha. But I failed la, else you wont be reading this nonsense already. So as I was saying, I was pondering on how vulnerable life is and only God himself knows when he wants to claim my life. I was hoping that before I depart, I could at least convey my message to those that I want to. Maybe not now. I have decided to save a draft for my last words. So when I die, whoever that has the password for this blog shall come and publish the post. What an awesome plan! Hehehe

Fret not, I did not contract any terminal disease or anything.
It's just a plan that I will execute for real. Hahahaha
I know this post sounds abit whacky but...
LIFE IS REALLY VULNERABLE WHAT!!
Go pen down your last words too.
Goodthenight. :D

2009-04-06T23:26:00.000+08:00

So long
So far
So much
So deep

So sleepy.
Zzzzzzzzzzzz

2009-04-03T23:02:00.002+08:00

AWAKE, NOT.

I'm okay, I'm not sad.
I'm tired. I want to sleep.
I can't. I have work to do.
I need to do. I want to do well.
I want to sleep still.
I miss you.
I say goodnight.

Too self-centered
I need to return to God.
Because ultimately, I = nothing.
He > I. (:

2009-03-30T23:51:00.002+08:00

Fearful.

Today I was fearful.
Fearful of disappointing them.
Fearful of disappointing myself.
Fearful of dashed hopes once again.

I think these thoughts arise from the many downfalls I faced back in secondary school.
The countless hope and faith that became naught.
Please do not let history repeats itself cause I had enough of being at the losing end.
Seriously, serious.

2009-03-23T22:21:00.002+08:00

To believe in yourself.

All I can say is that, temporary disappointment is a privilege. I'm not even supposed to feel that way because I need to move on fast. Yes, MOVE ON FAST!!
Now, MYEs is going to be an even arduous journey considering the fact that term 2 schedule is packed to the brim. Cmon, towards my dreammm.

The real battle begins now.

2009-03-20T14:07:00.003+08:00

Things may be in the way but I shall remain happppppppppppy.
So this is it, I'm not gonna study today.
Woohooooooo.

2009-03-16T21:44:00.002+08:00

Done with it.

Hello Earthlings! Let the 18 greet you. :D
So I'm back from school, back from shooting, back from camp. Gosh, the cumulative tiredness has finally taken its toll on me. Not to mention the exhausation, I swear I need more sleep than usual. However, I'm not able to enjoy such luxury since school has decided to call us back for more lessons. So much for a march term break. =/

Anyway, coach gave me a position you will never think of! Wing Defence. 6 years of netball life and that was never my play. So hahahaha, 5 minutes of playing WD on court, I sprained my ankle. Joke of the century man. Yea, now I'm suffering the wrath of unabling to tip toe when I shoot and all the shots end up flying everywhere except towards the net. Brilliant!

Okay, I'm gonna go catch the ZZZZZ monsters!
So SHERYL THAM YUAN XIN, HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY. (:
And thanks everybody for your wishes, blessings and gifts on the 14th march. :D
Goooodnight!

2009-03-10T20:29:00.003+08:00

Unbeautiful.

Apparently I stopped, because I didnt move on.

Shito!

2009-03-06T00:02:00.002+08:00

Tonight, I feel light-hearted and happy. (:
After so long, the night finally feels good.

Alright people, all the best for A's results tmr.
Too late to rewrite history, so just accept it.
You know I'll be there if it goes wrong, yes you! (:

2009-03-01T21:31:00.002+08:00

Mistake.

Sorry, I dont know what I want either.
So wrong, too wrong.

2009-02-26T00:08:00.003+08:00

Ideal death.

Omg, staying up in the night to talk about your ideal death seems pretty engaging/interesting. So my ideal death after much imagination would be to sweep away by tsunami and then followed by a tornado to pick me up together with the waves of water. There, riding on water before death. Exciting aye. :D

Okay, back to chem.
Spoiler sia!!!

2009-02-22T20:53:00.002+08:00

Why?

It's not supposed to feel this way
It's not supposed to hurt this way

Everything seems fine
But deep down, I know something went wrong
Something changed. :(

2009-02-19T22:48:00.003+08:00

How do I put this into words.
Fear, Anger, Pride.
You can use this to summarise the week.
=/

2009-02-15T23:30:00.003+08:00

Simplicity.

Introducing you, ORION's AWESOME OGLS! :D

Yoohoo, back and alive. :D

Alright, orientation wasnt the exact blast but I must say I made a whole load of cool friends. Especially the ogls from Orion and irritating shawn tiang! Oh, during the time of bonding orientation, I took a class whereby I already knew half of them. :O

I WATCHED BREAKOUT!! Omg, AWESOME TTM! I sweared I laughed till my stomach ache and erm, I was too tired to laugh at the last few parts. Worth the money like totally. This week has been stressfree because I finally had time off to not touch my work and yeap, no worries about the day after's work. However, there's one whole pile left for the upcoming week. Oh yeaaa, I'm lovin it.

Alright, time to drill some chem into my head. Chem SPA tmr. Hohoho

Toooooodles. (:

2009-02-10T22:32:00.002+08:00

Exhaustion

This is the bomb cause I'm officially worn out by both trainings and orientation. I have become someone weak, both physically and mentally. Mentally challenged by the amt of workload I got to rush throughout the weekend and physically with all my injuries and flu/cough.

I dont like this feeling. Night.
By the way, I changed a style of shooting. Finally, after 5 years. Woah.
Hope it works well.

2009-02-05T00:49:00.003+08:00

Free Fall.

Alright!! After backspacing so many times, I have decided to start the post with something applauadable. (:
Despite the lethargy, I survived the day and even managed to get some work done. Thank God.
So today kickstart the slightly happening things for orientation and wow, I think my OG is pretty awesome. Not forgetting my partner!! Ftw man.

Apparently, all the enthusiasm across that mere 3 hours drained me mentally and somewhat cost me my maths lessons. What's worse is when training revolves around physical and more physical. And non training days are PE days!! :( I need a break from exercising in one way or another!!!!

Plus, I aint catching up with all my work so er, glhf.
I shall be early tmr. What a goal.
Grrr, need to wash my uniform. Night.

2009-01-28T23:23:00.002+08:00

When school screws you up real badly, you just want to scream. But sometimes, whatever that you screamed has got to be thought twice because you have got to live up to other's expectations.
Sucks yea? I feel it too.

2009-01-19T00:43:00.000+08:00

The feeling of losing things sucks big time. :(

2009-01-15T23:15:00.009+08:00

Denial of foulplay.

Gosh, I'm alive!! I'm seriously thanking God for His awesome strength to pull me through this whole week of horror in school. School has been ridiculously draining and I'm glad I have yet to fall asleep during any lessons. And thank God for all my fairly awesome teachers. :D

As for the whole of this week, the earliest that I ever went to bed was at 12am. Yes, that's the earliest even after attempting to complete all my hwk. I failed la, failed damn badly. So, all my work are just halfdone in the end. Besides that, I swear that everybody is mugging as though they are on steroids. I wonder where did their souce of energy come from. Horror sight ttm! Okay, today is just one of the rare days where I actually have the time to sit down and blog. Other than that, the net is used for reseach or asking questions. That's what school has done to me thus far. /cry. So, I'm pretty much safe for tomorrow lessons but totally owned for next week tests and assignments. Well done. I shall reward myself by sleeping slightly earlier tonight. Like 1159pm.

And woah, finally after so long, I think that I'm over it. I dont know but today I told amee that it is just so unhealthy to sustain a relationship through a phone. You get what I mean? No, I'm not implying that I'm in one. -.- Oh btw, I managed to caught sight of that PLMGS girl. Gosh, this sounds totally unright, but who cares. Hahahaha.

Alright, gotto go. Yay for tmr netball gathering at beifart's hse. :D
Goodnight, fellow thinkers. Hehehehehehe.

2009-01-11T00:23:00.004+08:00

Amidst the crowd, you stood out.

As much as I'm racing against time, I'm glad I had fun.

I told lew that I will marry a foreigner in future. Singaporeans are just so ______. [ Shall not offend any. Peace! :D ]

Okay, techincally I'm left with a day till school reopens. I'm not really looking forward to it because I know that my biological clock cant tune back to the 6+ am timing at this point of time. Actually, I realised that sleeping early doesnt helps. Instead, it just makes me feel more lethargic. Right!! To make things more dreadful, I have yet to complete any of my articles. Hahahaha. Joke I know but I believe I can complete it in a day (with loads of whining in btw).

Dang, school cant do this to me. For consolation sake, at least the SAC looks conducive enough for me to drive myself to study. Now, isnt that something good. Yes, I like studying facing a wall. Believe it or not. This is getting abit incoherent because my eyes are on the verge of closing and there's service in the morning tmr. So to spare you the agony, I shall leave you with this.

Pretty cool isnt it? Hehe.
Goodnight.(:

2009-01-05T23:12:00.002+08:00

Just when I have decided not to blog, I came across this phrase which truely speaks what I believe.

Solitude is a daily essential.

Yes, I need it.
Bye.

2009-01-01T23:22:00.002+08:00

09' Resolutions.

I just typed a rather lengthy post but decided to cut everything short. So here I go

1) To walk right with God.
2) Save up money.
3) Set priorities right and stop fooling around.
4) Go pick up drums and practice more of my guitar!
5) Ace my freaking A's.
6) Maintain friendships with all sorts of people. Lol.
7) To find a club to continue playing netball.
LASTLY,
8) Pleasant relationship with family members.

Yes, I hoped this wouldnt be chuck right at the back of my head after 1 month.
Now, yenhui! Go do your quiet time. LOL.
Kaybye. (:

2008-12-31T12:09:00.009+08:00

Adieu 2008.

2008 has indeed been a year of ups and downs and I have experienced a whole load of new experience that I never thought I would. Yet, I'm glad I went through such trials because those have definitely taught me much and somewhat made me grow up.

I thank God for Safety.
I thank God for Hope.
I thank God for Faithfulness.
I thank God for Love.

I thank God for friends. (:

''Whatever that can be shaken will be shaken, the cross holds.''

Resolutions for 09' will be in the next post.
Happy New Year, Pull your ear.
Kay, gtg. Bye!!!! :D

2008-12-29T23:06:00.003+08:00

Spare me the heartbreak.

Gosh, pointers today. Mouth feels freaking sore!!

The Upcoming

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY DAPHNE CHEN!! (:
Island Creamery tmr! :D
Training tmr.
Meeting up with ex-leaders tmr.
New Year Eve Celebration at Mel's house/Stayoverrrr.
Friday cycling at Ubin with youth.

The Past

Youth Black & White Christmas Party.
Thanksgiving service in church with pizza treat at the end.
Watched YesMan and IpMan. Obviously the latter one is better.
Dream last night was kinda funny yet saddening at the same time. Hahaha. It goes like this- Someone insulted me when I was giving my testimony. I dint even do that in real life. -.- Then we were both packing a bookshelf and I got accused. The next thing I know was that I screamed at him and ran off and met miss lam on the way. Very random, yes I know.

The Current

Having a very bad sore at my tongue, gums and throat. Yes, it sucks!!
Feeling very lazy to wrap up the remaining presents/do up the presents that I owe. So people, don't expect your presents anytime soon. I'm soooo Sorry!!
Left with loads of homework!! My motivation has yet to be found. :(

Okay, that basically summarise all that I want to say. Now, 2 more days to the end of 2008. Go do sth stupid. Yea right. Bye!

2008-12-25T20:45:00.010+08:00

Merry Christmas'08! ;D

Blessed Christmas to all you people out there. (: Once again without fail, I spent my 3rd year of Christmas with the DVs. This time round, there was much more food, more people, [including reg's relative and all, Lol] not to forget about the theme which is to appear with a headgear. This year celebration however was kinda a Fantastical Party rather than DVs because as usual Apandu left early for mass while tohjia forsake us for genting. Nonetheless, I had my fair share of fun. :D Check out the past 2 years of Christmas celebration, followed by this year. (: Have fun.

Christmas'06Christmas'07Christmas'08I can't see Mel here! :OMel has a screwed up shrek's ear. Our very own bbq pit!Little Nonyas!Green White Gay gang. LOL!!!!!Whities. hahahahahaFantasticals. Melina's after training towelSheryl's reaction upon receiving pineapple for present from Daphne!

So that's all. (: Once again, Merry Christmas to one and all.
We shall wait for new year now. :D

2008-12-23T23:26:00.002+08:00

The Past

To make my point clear, I just want to say that it pains me to see people holding on to the past. The past that's filled with sorrow and bitterness. Be it unable to let go or hard to let go, I just hoped they would move on because apparently, all of them are in a state of grieve.
Friends, Church, Love, Family, it is painful, very painful.

Even I'm making progress.
Why not you?

2008-12-21T23:47:00.004+08:00

Too complex for comprehension.

Yo sup, I had a good deal of shoe and bag thanks to dud. :D Very harpiexzs. But, nobody at home bothers to share my joy so I'm posting such trivial matters online for the world to share it with me. Yes, it's bothering me that my family members dont want to talk to me.

:( Unbelievable huh.

Secondly, I heard certain things which arent meant for me. It doesnt concern me but, it affects me because I do not wish to see how history repeats itself. This makes me feel uneasy. Oh dang. See, I told you I dont like the adult world. Maybe through such complexity in life that things begin to take an adverse effect on me. Oh well, maybe me liking a girl. I'm just saying, who knows! :O

Thirdly, the fact that the only bridge is broken, it causes me to feel upset. Right, yenhui right!!! I'm supposed to be happy about it. :(

Actually, I wouldnt complain or whine so much if my family members talk to me. Arghhh.

BYE! and you werent there.

2008-12-19T23:46:00.002+08:00

Pleasant.

Yo sup!! I'm feeling rather light-hearted now and it's a good sign though I was sulking cause once again, my mum decides not to go shopping with me with the same excuse of running short of moolah. Oh well. I need the cashhhh to buy gifts.

I know this sounds abit retarded but I feel like writing a New Year post like nownownow, or even tmr. I dont know. Apparently, this year had been an eventful year for me. Harrpieee like shitxzsxzsxzsxzx, saddd like shitxzsxzsxs and angry like shitzzxs. Kay, this doesnt make sense.

Well well, I'm off.
Dinner with DVs tmr. :D

2008-12-18T01:10:00.003+08:00

Nonchalent.

Hi martians!!! Tomorrow is the 18thhhh, meaning the rest are back. The ~~boys~~girls are back, the ~~boys~~girls are back. [HSM3 song] Okay, whatever me I know. Apparently, my week has been pretty eventful given the time off trainings. :D Managed to meet up with another few more mates before the week ends. Definitely, things have been pretty cool lately.
Thank you fat for the present from swisssssssss.

Last night birthday celebration was quite a scene. Apparently, the mess went on despite 3 security guards being down at the spot, making a fuss out of everything. However, all in all, everything went well and hope the birthday boy had fun. So happy 18th birthday yuhang. (:

Okayyy, I'm running out of things to say. Actually, maybe not.
Before I end it off, I just want to say that I'm very put off by that attitude of yours. For once, I think that you are undeserving of whatever attention and concern your friends give unto you. Not to mention, the ~~unrequited love~~liking. I am DISGUSTED. I dont harbour hate, this disgust will just last for 2 days. Yesyes.

I took a chill pill. I'm still happy.
Yea, hi5 and goodnight. :D
Tonight feels fickle. Oh rightttt. Hehe.
Oyasumi.

2008-12-13T23:55:00.002+08:00

Messed.

Goshhhhhh, I'm so frigging tired from all the excessive sleep and toilet runs. Dang. Not like I have anything to crap out in the first place since there isnt any proper meal for the day besides dinner. This dont make sense. For that, I'm messed up physically.

So I gave church a missed for that reason. Yet, I wonder what's the real reason behind it. I wished I had an answer to it too. Oh well, so much for looking forward huh. Not to mention my decision. Now, I'm messed up spiritually.

Last but not least, mental over emotions please. It's taking a toll on me and I'm struggling like crap. I thought I handled it well, I thought. But the truth is that it was never handled in the first place. Escape. Messed up emotionally.

Wthhh. Never mind. Tomorrow will be a better day.
Anyway, thank you Jarrod for the tics. Good production there. (:
Night.

2008-12-12T00:03:00.002+08:00

I dont like.

I dont like it when youtube takes a gazillion minutes to load.
I dont like to be scolded for nothing.
I dont like to be accused.
I dont like having so many issues to think/worry about.

I dont like it when I'm feeling like this. It seems like everything tends to be repulsive and annoying. But still, I dont like it.

As bad as the night may be, I thank God for friends to catchup with.
Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

2008-12-07T05:10:00.005+08:00

Best of time, not.

An hour in the midst of the night brought my memory through string of events that I never once liked to face. Yet, I must say it has definitely given me revelations on certain matters. However, with prior knowledge to one particular matter, it left me nowhere but right at the crossroad again. What a test of faith at such unearthly hour.

God really works through unexpecting ways.

2008-12-06T23:27:00.007+08:00

Dempsey.

Hi fellow earthlings! After cooping myself at home for nearly 3 miserable days, I went out to meet the DVs. 5/7 to be exact. I must say the 3 days at home was totally wasted. I just spent my time being a sloth. Oh so cool.

So meeting up with the DVs was great. Did our usual- eating and talking for hours at Astons and Dempsey. Cool place to chill out at. Next time next time. Alright, peeeektures time. I sucked at injecting excitement through words. I swear I can't be a poet in the future. Oh well, still pathologist. :D

Alright, Goodnight.
Badbadbadbadmintonnnn. I'm watching hairspray now!!! :DD
There's an eye candy out there! :O:O:O

2008-12-04T02:08:00.004+08:00

Pained.

It was never easy, nobody said it was easy in the first place.
Let it be a kite, it flies because of the wind. No matter how much control you have over it, without the wind, you alone cant make it fly.
From then on, you feel helpless.
And that's what I'm feeling now.

2008-12-01T21:07:00.002+08:00

Unsaid.

Last night tour de' Singapore was fun!! Gosh, we did not completed 84km as mentioned cause we are only supposed to complete 60k. Even such, we managed to do so in 8 hours. Gosh, what a first time experience huh, not bad indeed. But now, I got to say that my whole legs are aching and there's training tomorrow. Rightt!! I'm still very tired after that 9 hours of sleep and that 1 hour in the bus with denise. Thank God the bus ended at interchange. Oh right, let's jst hope that the March make-up trip will be fulfilled and fun. Mosha ftw! (:

And yay, I'm still left with 7 more econs essay even after writing 1. Never mind. Positive mind positive mind. Okay, this isnt going anywhere and it's pretty incoherent. I'm turning back to bed else dont expect me to turn up for training.

Goodnight.
I'm left with 2 weeks.

2008-11-29T12:51:00.004+08:00

It's a dream of uncertainties

Hello friends, as you can see from this post, I'm still in town. So yeap, the trip is cancelled. Oh well, what can I say. So instead of going to chiangmai, we are going to cycle 84 km around Singapore. It's like back and forth from Pasir Ris to Jurong East, and it's overnight. We arent supposed to sleep. =/ What a challenge.

I guessed I'm going to spend this week trying to complete all my homework since I have plenty of time on hand currently. :D Did I tell you guys that being an OGL does have its price to pay. Go calculate the lost time for both academic and trainings, we are sure losing out. :( SR is gonna have a 10 days orientation for the 09 batch. Oh man, GLHF!

By the way, I'm glad the rest of the DVs are back safe and sound except for afew who have not even board the planes. Thank God. As for those who are leaving Sg (both dvs and srjcians), take care and enjoy. (:

I'll leave the sad things for some other days. This post seems too cheery for sad stuffs.
Till then, have fun and study hard. Hahahaa

2008-11-27T00:25:00.004+08:00

Companion/the other

Yo sup! After much hesistation, default skin is still the best! Sososo, I bet all you guys out there must have heard about the situation in Bangkok. Oh well, the school might decide to cancel the trip if situation still doesnt improve by this friday. How optimistic of them to still hold on to such glimpse of hope. I have already prepare myself to spend that one week in Singapore. Butbutbut, to be able to go is still definitely better, right!!!!

Recieved news of the reshuffling of classes and I ended up in 07 still. And woah, it's a class dominated by girls with just 4 pathetic guys. Hahaha. I'm not upset by it, infact, I'm being rather optimistic about this class. I believeeeeeeee, (dont disappoint me pls!) it will be of a better lot than this year. However, keith ong rui ming that irritating guy is no longer in the same class as me!!! The consequences of him being too smart. Oh well, there's still Amee. (:

On a way happier note, school has ended and I'm a free bird now. Hahaha. Hi regigi, we can bore our way to I dont know where and die together. I'm glad that I managed to catch up with afew of my friends over the week and even to the extent of chilling in the zoo. Brilliant huh! Now, I'm left with a class chalet and a final briefing on whether I'll still be in town next week or not.

Time for bed. Goodnight folks.

P.S: Hello Mr Tai Poun Lork, when are you coming back!!!!!

2008-11-21T00:29:00.003+08:00

More of You, All of You, None of me.

I just completed my Maclaurin! :D
Oh man, recently I have been staying up late just to complete all my tutorials. Not bad for a good start so as to work towards my consistence goal. Whatever it is, I'm left with 3 more days in school before the school term officially ends!!! However, sad to say, I'm being left alone for 2 good days. Freaking Amee and Keith took off to India and Aussie respectively today and left me alone with the _____ class. (Fill in the blanks yourself!)

You know what, I don't know what has been going on in my life recently. It somewhat revolves around the same old things over and over again. To be honest, I'm not doing well spiritually. I have yet to seek God for a long time. Maybe it's time since what I have been contemplating for long is nearing. Praypraypray.

Last but not least, I'm stuck in this abyss for way too long.
I might have actually been accustomed to its usual that I forgotten how to climb out of it. How now brown cow? =/
As much as I know, somewhere somehow something, a video, would make me smile. :D
Goodnight. (:

2008-11-19T00:27:00.004+08:00

you suck so badly :(

Take care daphne. Have fun in India.

2008-11-14T23:13:00.002+08:00

Self-note:
Don't waste time

1) SCHOOL IS SICKENING.
2) SHOOTING ROUTINE IS BACK.
3) MET UP WITH THE DVS.
4) OUTDOOR PE IS TMR! SCREW IT.
5) STAYOVER AT AMEE'S.
6) CYCLING AT TAMPINES.
7) RETURNING BACK TO SCHOOL ON MONDAY.

I'm done for the week so for now, I will head back to my james patterson. Hohoho.
To these people: Wanting, Catherine and Eva.
Happy Birthday!! (:

2008-11-11T22:48:00.004+08:00

I'll do my best.

What a dread, school started after such long period of intensive PW and Chinese. Kinda lost the familiarity of how studying should go about. Needless to say, maths was horrible because we were bugged by some irritating teacher who insisted on holding us back for half an hour. All in all, I have no wish of attending school. It's my holiday please. :(

Right, I shall look forward to tomorrow. Because,
1) School is ending at 10am. Thank God!!!!
2) Party-Pack
3) Baking, YUM!!

Oooh, and I dint know that bass was actually so amusing!!! Cooliozzxzx.
Kay, this post was posted for the sake of posting. So tadaa and bye.

Before I go, Happy 17th Birthday Ant! (:

As much as I love you, YOU SUCK!

I know I'm gonna get slaughtered for this, but please dont.

For any interested party, the lady above is single and available.

Name: Antster
Age: 17
School: Srjc
Her birthday wish: To get a soulmate
For any enquiries, please leave a tag at the tag board on your left. (:

2008-11-09T22:58:00.005+08:00

Come what may.

Had CIP with Amee and afew irritating person whom I gonna spend 7 days with at Chiangmai at EXPO today. The dogs that came over were PRETTY ttm!! Ohhh, daph and reg popped by and guess what, we met Mr Lim peh and Snoop. Something more interesting would be that waihoong was one of Mr Lim's students too. Small world indeed. It's a small world after all, it's a small small world. -.-

However, snoop doesnt seems to recognize us. :'(
Hahahaha, goodnight.

2008-11-08T01:00:00.002+08:00

quality not quantity.

Today, I actually considered. Considered something which I hadnt have the courage to do so since 10 months back. I know I would regret, hence, everything remained. As much as I want to abandon such memories, I cant bear to do so cause apparently, that's what left of us.
So now, I'm revealed.

Hello jeremy, HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY. (:
You owe me 2 slaps and your psp to play with.
Now, this is the 4-pronged approach to wish you happy birthday.

Goodnight people.

2008-11-06T22:39:00.002+08:00

Maybe it would be better off this way.

I'm very happy now because the bane of my JC life is over. Yes, over for good! I know I'm very late compared to those who completed their OP afew days back but whatever, I recieved the same amount of joy. As much as I want to delete my whole PW file, there's still InR. =/

Youknowwhat! I still feel like sleeping after 7 hours of nap. My biological clock is going haywired. I want to eat touhuay again. Hello taipounlork, you cant eat it over at swiss. Too bad!! Apparently I dont know what to blog so now, I will pass my time over to my last speaker to continue on the last stage of the proposal... Thank you.

Okay la, I will spare everybody my nonsense. So hehehehehehe, goodnight byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

2008-11-03T22:52:00.002+08:00

Today, I shall not live up to your expectations.

I thought today was rather well-spent besides hanging out and doing nothing. It somehow sets me to a rather reflective mood. Hahahaha. Not to mentioned that I actually settled down and read a book for all I want, after so long. That's nice. Dont you think so!! :D

Last night, I was rudely dismissed by a friend of mine though my intentions were meant to be well. I guessed that's what you get for being nice sometimes. Maybe it's just me being oversensitive or you being insensitive. Oh well, what do you think?

Nonetheless, I will choose not to dwell on it. (:
Gooodnight friends.